Monday, March 2, 2015

Single Or Joined

Saturday, February 21, 2015

Have You Ever Told Your Bone Marrow It Is Loved?

I have and it was a remarkable experience!   Why would I take the time to send love to my bone marrow. Well, here is my story:

A year ago I went for a mammogram and was told I needed to have a breast ultrasound to look more closely at a spot in the upper outer quadrant of my left breast.  I went for the ultrasound and was unpleasantly surprised to hear that the spot looked suspicious.  A needle biopsy was recommended and was told it could be done within the next two days.  

When the radiologist said these words, and they were the only ones he spoke to me, I felt as if  they were not really spoken to me but more or less into thin air.    There wasn't any warmth or friendliness in his words, no real interest in me, at least that is the way it seemed.   I had the thought, "You know, the people at Starbuck's know me better than you. They at least ask my name so they can write it on my cup."   No one, neither tech nor doctor, offered  a kind or understanding word about my situation.  I felt, metaphorically, that I had been slapped in the face and told, "Oh, that didn't hurt".    I was very aware that I needed to make a decision about the biopsy but was determined I would not be pressured in to making a decision right on the spot. 

Everything within me said don't proceed quickly with this.  "Take your time, think about this and determine if it is the right course for you," whispered by inner knowing.  You may be thinking, "What's the matter with her?   Why wouldn't she want to know right away if there was cancer in her breast."   

Actually, I have quite a few  reasons for not wanting to jump into it head first, or breast first in my case, without knowing more.   I didn't want to become a customer of the medical system and be over-treated for a problem that would be best left alone.  It could be something I would die with but not from if I left it alone.  I didn't want to assume the worst about the situation  nor did I want to interfere with a natural process that could be going on in my body that was working to heal and repair the  area.  However, I didn't want to die because of being  stupid either.  There was a lot to think about!

So what shall I do?   I knew I would take my time about deciding, that was a given, considering my natural, cautious, curious, nature.  I would take my time and learn as much as I could about complex cysts and I would also meditate and contemplate about the next right step for me without pressure from the medical system .  

The radiologist report described the area as hypoechoic, meaning that it reflected fewer  sound waves.  It was described as being wider than tall and an avascular lesion. It had slightly increased in size from a previous ultrasound.  The lesion could be a cyst, a fibroadenoma or cancer.  The radiologist did not offer to explain anything he saw on the ultrasound other than, statically there was a 20% chance  it could be cancer.   I would have welcomed him sharing his knowledge with me, explaining what he saw and why he thought it might be cancer.  Had he attempted to educate me,  I might have been comfortable enough to say yes to having the biopsy. ( One of the problems with being a nurse is you know a little bit about a lot of things but never as much as you would like.)  

As fate would have it, with in the next few months I became acquainted with Linda Christine Beauregard, author of the book, "I Gave Myself Cancer, I Can Take It Away," and Jean Sumner, founder of World Wellness Education, and I met Charles Majors, author of  "Cancer Killers" and Ursala Kaiser, author of
 "A Wealth of Health".  These people were eager to share their knowledge with me and each one of them had healed themselves of cancer by nutrition and alternative therapists.  I sat up and took notice!

Nutrition, health, and personal growth have always been subjects that interest me and I was ripe and ready to learn more.  I have a great deal of respect for the intelligence of my body, after all it, breathes me with out me doing a thing, and it digests food and eliminates without a passing thought from me.  That inner intelligence has taken  care of me for sixty four years.   I was not about to start mistrusting it now, nor was I about to turn against it by having needles, poisons, or radiation administered by a system that focuses on disease rather than health without my being fully informed.

I have made eye contact with the Grim Reaper about three times in my life and have brushed the sleeve of his garment even more than a few times so I feel very blessed to still be here and I want to be here for a lot longer.   I trust my intellect, my imagination and my intuition to guide me through this process.  I was willing to take charge of my life  and I began  to make some much needed changes.  

Feeding  and cleaning  the cells is the short version of how to promote health and prevent disease so  I switched to eating more organic foods,  more raw foods, purified water and lots of it, lots of green drinks, herbs to support my immune system, a daily meditation and guided imagery practice, detoxification of the body with food, water, coffee enemas, herbs, dry brushing,  and increased exercise.  

While sitting in my daily meditation practice of sending love to all the organs in my body, I had an unexpected experience.  I felt them respond!  I am not speaking metaphorically here.  My pancreas actually fluttered, the bones of my pelvis rattled as I sent thoughts of appreciation to my bone marrow!  My heart swelled and caused tears of gratitude to stream down my face. 

I know the mind is in the body, in every cell,  but I didn't know that you could cultivate an intimate relationship with your organs.   They know when the mind is flooding them with love, when they are being ignored and when they are being neglected.  I am forever changed by this simple practice of sitting quietly in meditation and sending appreciation to my body. 

I am humbled by this awareness and by the realization that I have sent many uncaring, negative  messages to my body through the years.  I grew up in an atmosphere of neglect, abandonment and rejection and I have told myself the story of being un-lovable over and over again.   I did not know how to love, nurture, soothe, or comfort myself until my breast started  asking for my attention.  Imagine all that my cells have overheard.

I knew the happiest time of my life was when I was a new mother.  It was wonderful holding someone I loved so much in my arms and feeding them at my breast (I have two children).  I was filled with love and concern, and demonstrated very caring behaviors toward them.  I breast fed them during a time when it wasn't popular, made my own baby food, and wouldn't let any harmful substance  near them if I could help it.  Ask the smokers around me if they remember my admonishments?    I was protective,  diligent, and determined when it came to taking care of them.  

The time has come in my life when I must show that same amount of care and concern for myself that I did my babies.  Today I am more mindful of the critical thoughts and I will stop them and tell another story. However, I am a work in progress and I fall short more than I like.  I want to nurture and care for myself in the same manner I did my babies and I want to consider it a privilege to do this just as I felt as a new mother.

A woman's breast symbolizes loving, nurturing, motherly love,  sensuousness and softness.  It is nestled right beside the heart; the organ that symbolizes love.  Love is the medicine I need more than anything else.   During  my life there were many times I felt unsupported.  Now I am looking at life  differently.  I see that support is the basic fabric of life.  I can see it in my own body.  I have two eyes, two ears, two lungs, two kidneys, each one  supporting the other.  Really there isn't  any part of the body that isn't supported by the other parts.  They are all interconnected by an amazing feedback loop. We have one heart but it has four chambers. Isn't that wonderful?  We are sitting in an ocean of love and support and often can't experience it!

When I thought I was unsupported it was only because I was not fully aware of all that is.  I've been near death, had heartbreaks, and  lonely times but life has always supported me through those times.    I am very grateful to be awakened to my ability to love and my lovableness.  My heart just fluttered and my eyes well up.  Ahh the feeling of gratitude.  What a wonderful thing!  

My next step is uncertain but I will proceed in the direction that I believe is right for me.  I will continue to work at loving and supporting myself  and looking forward to the journey that lies ahead
To be continued. 

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Using Joy to Deflect Fear

This spring I faced a very stressful situation and used joy to deflect my fears and anxiety.

The radiologist told me there was a suspicious area on my screening mammogram.  Well, this was not news I wanted to receive!  To make matters worse,  I was told it would be two weeks before I could get a diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound in order to have a more definitive view of the area.

I wondered how I would get through the next two weeks with out stressing myself out knowing I could potentially be told I had breast cancer.  I didn't like having to wait this long but I did like having time to work with my mind and emotions while I waited for the final diagnosis.  I wanted to create a state within myself that could accept whatever life handed to me without being overwhelmed with fear and I wanted to be free of anxiety and worry while I waited for the upcoming tests.

During this same time period,  I was in the process of learning several songs which I would be singing with the choir I was part of  and I decided I would use this  to create more joy  in me and deflect anxiety and worry. Nothing brings me more joy than singing with the choir so it was the perfect choice for me.

All my spare time was used to practice the songs we were working on.  One piece I was working on was a song  I wrote and our music director had invited me to sing it during our Sunday church service and one piece was one I would be singing with two other women at an annual talent show.  

All this could not have happened at a more perfect time.  My mind could stay focused on the things I loved and my time would not be spent in worry.  I spent the entire two weeks singing as often as I could and I allowed joy to fully awaken  in me and with mindfulness I sent this this joy into every cell of my body, affirming I was whole and well.

The morning I went for the diagnostic studies I took all my music with me because I knew I would have time to work on it while I waited.  I wanted to keep my mind focused and keep my joyful state active.   I sang my heart out as I sat in the tiny room waiting for the doctor to come and tell me her findings.   I had pre-paved my calmness during this day by cultivating a state of joy during the previous two weeks. Not once did I give into fear!

When the doctor and the tech entered the room they both had very solemn expressions on their faces and I thought to myself,  " they really should have more positive expressions when they deliver good news to people."  I had convinced myself it would be good news and their sour expressions did not phase me!  And it was good news! There was no indication of cancer!

Surely, they thought it strange when they walked into the room and saw this woman, who was waiting for a possibly very serious diagnosis to be delivered,  sitting there beaming with joy.  Believe me when I tell you I was beaming!  Not only was singing keeping me in a joyful state but a friend  surprised me and showed up to be with me during this time.  I could not have been happier.  I could feel my joy radiating out into the room. They must have felt it too.

Did my refusal to give in to worry and fear affect my outcome?  I believe it did.  I believe I could have made myself ill, even create cancer,  during those two weeks by worrying and living in fear every moment. Our minds and emotional states creates the medium the cells of our body reside in and those states promote either illness or health.

I am very grateful for the outcome I had and grateful for the knowledge I have of the power of the minds affect on the body.  

May all be well and at peace.


Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Recipe For Releasing Emotional States

Here is a recipe you are sure to benefit from:  "Recipe for Releasing Emotional States From Subconscious Mind".

Sometimes we get stuck in a painful emotional pattern  when painful memories are activated in the mind by circumstances that remind us of some past event.  These unpleasant emotional events are sometimes hard to shack without some prodding on our part.  Here is a method for releasing the emotional charge and finding some relieve.   If you give it a try, I would love feedback on your results.

1.  Affirm the  presence of  Love, of God,  Divine love, or Wisdom  (whatever works for you)  3 times.

2. Affirm memories are powerless to disturb you because of this Divine Presence.

3. Declare aloud:  I know release the thoughts, feelings, beliefs, and attitudes that are causing ________________________.  Tell your subconscious to revel the the memories causing this attitude.

4. Write on a sheet of paper:   I now release these error thoughts,  I let them go;  and I allow them to be dissolved for all time and  in all directions.

5. Sit quietly for a short time and then write down short phrases of the  thoughts, feelings, and attitudes attached to the memories.  Do not write facts, write your feelings and do not reread.  Cover each phrase you write with a clean sheet of paper so you don't reread.

6. When no more memories come,  tear the paper to shreds while repeating:  I now release these errors; I loose them; I let them go ; and I let the dissolve into nothingness, for all time and  in all directions.

7. Now burn the paper in a suitable receptacle.  Watch the flames while declaring aloud:  These error thoughts are now consumed by  Love, by God,  by Wisdom, etc, . The energy is released to be reused in a new and better form NOW.  Repeat the statement as long as the burning continues.

8.When reduced to ashes say a prayer of thanksgiving for your freedom from the errors of the past .  Thank you, God, Divine One, Subconscious mind, (whatever works for you)  for my freedom from the mistakes of the past and the results of the mistakes of the past.

9. Make an affirmation that  claims your good:  I now attract and enjoy ________________.

10. When any thoughts about this reoccur state:  I have no more need for that thought.  I  deactivate it and release the energy NOW.

11.Replace the dismissed thought with a positive statement :  I am poised and centered in peace, love, forgiveness, security, strength, beauty, success,  etc.    My soul is undisturbed by anyone or any circumstance, past or present.

12.  If the mental pattern continues, repeat burning process.  Some emotional states may require 3 burnings.

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

How Meditation Changes the Brain

The information about meditation is  from a recent email I received from Luminosity.  I practice meditation because of the known benefits and recommend it to anyone who seeks greater peace, insight, health, and well-being.   I also recommend the  brain training exercises at Luminosity.  If you have not tried them, go to and sign up for their free training.   It is great fun and helps improve your memory.

For more information on meditation and its benefits,  I recommend the following books:
Super Brain - Chopra and Tanzi
The Mindfulness Solution - Siegel                            
Real Happiness - Salsberg
How to Meditate - Chodron
Meditation for Beginners - Kornfield     


"A new study out of Brown University has found that a form of mindfulness meditation known as MBSR may act as a "volume knob" for attention, changing brain wave patterns.
What is MBSR?
Originally developed by a professor at the University of Massachusetts Medical School, mindfulness based stress reduction (MBSR) is based on mindfulness meditation techniques that have been practiced in some form or another for over two millennia. The 8-week MBSR program still follows some of the same principles of the original Buddhist practice, training followers to focus a "spotlight of attention" on different parts of their body. Eventually, it is hoped, practitioners learn to develop the same awareness of their mental states.

In the last 20 years, MBSR and a similar practice called mindfulness based cognitive therapy (MBCT) have been included in an increasing number of healthcare plans in the developed world. Some studies have shown that these practices can reduce distress in individuals with chronic pain and decrease risk of relapses into depression.

In this study, Brown University researchers wanted to investigate whether MBSR could have a broader application beyond the clinical realm. Could MBSR impact the alpha brain waves that help filter and organize sensory inputs, improving attentional control?
Study design
Researchers divided the study’s 12 healthy adult participants into two groups: a test group that underwent MBSR training for 8 weeks, and a control group that did not. After 8 weeks, a brain imaging technique known as magnetoencephalography (MEG) was used to measure alpha wave patterns in participants.

While hooked up to the brain scanning equipment, participants felt taps on their hands and feet at random intervals. On average, those who trained with MBSR demonstrated faster and greater alpha wave changes in response to these taps. These alpha wave surges indicated that participants were better able to quickly focus attention on the relevant body parts.
How alpha waves affect cognition
Alpha rhythms help filter irrelevant sensory inputs in the brain. Without proper filtering, the ability to carry out many basic cognitive operations can be crippled.

Imagine the simple task of backing a car out of the driveway. In order to reach the street safely, you must hold your destination in mind while steering and ignoring distractions from every modality: news on the radio, children playing at the end of the block, an itch on your foot, the glare of the sun in your eyes. Most people filter out these distractions subconsciously — but should irrelevant stimuli distract you, backing out can become a difficult ordeal.

This Brown University study is in line with other research on meditation, confirming previous findings that link enhanced attentional performance and fewer errors in tests of visual attention with meditation. While it’s still too early to declare meditation a cure-all for everything from attentional control to chronic pain, it’ll be fascinating to see what future research uncovers about this millennia-old tradition’s impact on the brain.

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Dealing with Addiction

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Using alcohol and drugs to alter the state of your consciousness is a slippery slop that few can escape without leaving scars within and without.

It may start out as innocent fun but if engaged in long enough it becomes a habit and you permanently change the wiring of your brain. This rewiring leads to the destruction of the things most of us hold dear;  health, relationships, finances, jobs, spirituality, and self-respect.  Once the brain is wired for addiction, you put “it” before everyone and everything else and the parts of the brain that have to do with relationships, memory and decision making actually shrink. 

You are more at risk for addiction if you have a family history of addiction, suffered abuse, neglect or were traumatized as a child and if you began using at a young age or administered the drug by smoking  or injecting.  

Brain on Drugs Royalty Free Stock ImagesHaving grown up surrounded by the disease of alcoholism, I can tell you first hand that it leads to abandonment, betrayal, sexual deviance, relationship crimes, dependency, spiritual bankruptcy, self-hatred, anxiety and panic, dishonesty, personality disorders, distortions of reality, divorce, isolation, shame, and physical disease.

For a fuller discussion of addition please click on the link below. 


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Thursday, October 3, 2013

Improve Your Mood? Naturally!

Below is an exert from Dr. Mercola's recent newsletter regarding the use of antidepressants and what you can do naturally to improve your mood.   The information if valuable so I am sharing it with you.  Please check out the entire article.  The link for the article is at the body of this page.

  • Dramatically decrease your consumption of refined sugar (particularly fructose), grains, and processed foods. (In addition to being high in sugar and grains, processed foods also contain a variety of additives that can affect your brain function and mental state, especially MSG, and artificial sweeteners such as aspartame.)  There's a great book on this subject, The Sugar Blues, written by William Dufty more than 30 years ago, that delves into the topic of sugar and mental health in great detail.
  • Increase consumption of probiotic foods, such as fermented vegetables and kefir, to promote healthy gut flora. Mounting evidence tells us that having a healthy gut is profoundly important for both physical and mental health, and the latter can be severely impacted by an imbalance of intestinal bacteria.
  • Get adequate vitamin B12. Vitamin B12 deficiency can contribute to depression and affects one in four people.
  • Optimize your vitamin D levels, ideally through regular sun exposure. Vitamin D is very important for your mood. In one study, people with the lowest levels of vitamin D were found to be 11 times more prone to be depressed than those who had normal levels.18

    The best way to get vitamin D is through exposure to SUNSHINE, not swallowing a tablet. Remember, SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is a type of depression that we know is related to sunshine deficiency, so it would make sense that the perfect way to optimize your vitamin D is through sun exposure, or a safe tanning bed if you don't have regular access to the sun.
  • Get plenty of animal-based omega-3 fats. Many people don't realize that their brain is 60 percent fat, but not just any fat. It is DHA, an animal based omega-3 fat which, along with EPA, is crucial for good brain function and mental health.19Unfortunately, most people don't get enough from diet alone. Make sure you take a high-quality omega-3 fat, such as krill oil.

    Dr. Stoll, a Harvard psychiatrist, was one of the early leaders in compiling the evidence supporting the use of animal based omega-3 fats for the treatment of depression. He wrote an excellent book that details his experience in this area called The Omega-3 Connection.
  • Evaluate your salt intake. Sodium deficiency actually creates symptoms that are very much like those of depression. Make sure you do NOT use processed salt (regular table salt), however. You'll want to use an all-natural, unprocessed salt like Himalayan salt, which contains more than 80 different micronutrients.
  • Get adequate daily exercise, which is one of the most effective strategies for preventing and overcoming depression. Studies on exercise as a treatment for depression have shown there is a strong correlation between improved mood and aerobic capacity. So there’s a growing acceptance that the mind-body connection is very real, and that maintaining good physical health can significantly lower your risk of developing depression in the first place.
  • Get adequate amounts of sleep. You can have the best diet and exercise program possible, but if you aren't sleeping well you can easily become depressed. Sleep and depression are so intimately linked that a sleep disorder is actually part of the definition of the symptom complex that gives the label depression.

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